Today, I ascend. I arise into the new creation that I am; into the highest version of myself.
My only ambition- to merge with the divine.
I am coming up higher in:
the way that I speak
the way that I move
the way that I think
the way that I eat
the way that I dress
the way that I carry myself
my very being must come up higher.
It's interesting how the spirit has been elevated and promoted to a higher level. God takes care of that.
But our physical bodies and souls need to come up as well. God leads that effort and enables us, but we must decide to come up. We must cooperate and participate in the process.
So today, I let go of my old self. I release her. I release my past. I release my old identity that much was birthed from trauma, neglect, insecurities and rejection.
I am not the same person.
I have grown so much.
It is now time that I give myself full permission to live into that growth.
My old self was a showman, a jest, an entertainer, a pleaser.
My new self simply is.
I am quiet. I am an introvert. I am a loner. I don't like to be around a lot of people; lot of energies. It exhaust me. This is who I am.
Today I am embracing who I am.
No more performance, just me.
I thank you for the teachers of this. Those who spoke negatively about me. Those who challenged me.
I now see they were mere instruments of God to reveal who I was not.
The world will not love you and there will always be people who simply don't like you so why not live the rest of this life with the full permission just to be me. At least let them hate the real you because you probably don't even like the false version of you either.
It took a lot for me to arrive at this point and I couldn't have done so without the help of the holy spirit.
He allowed me to see that my identity was unhealthy and pulled me out of who I truly was-into a character created and donned to satisfy and please human consumption and appetites.
So, I have to embrace who I truly am so that I may thrive.
I discard the old me that was created out of survival.
The revelation in this moment is that it never was me, just a costume with residuals.
Today I take that costume off and I rest in who I truly am.
I believe this will allow me to be free to have the interactions I need to have with my destiny connections and navigate the terrain of my promised land.
Spend more time with yourself. Get to know you. Explore your inner universe- your mental, emotional, spiritual, physical worlds. When you spend enough time with yourself and God, you notice the change, the transition when you are present around others.
Know that change doesn't serve you. It is an act, a performance. Your goal is to spend so much time with yourself and the Lord that you begin to love who you are, crave it, honor it and then don't change. Simply remain the same.
Allow the people to get mad, frustrated, confused and if so, fall away.
The people that love you will adjust.
The people that are not will leave, but God has others for you. New people who are more like the real you.
Oh, death to self is a process but it is necessary for the true Self to emerge.
He or she was always there and is there now. You have only disconnected from him or her and allowed yourself to become something you are not- a performer of sorts.
This is why you may lack confidence with others, feel off balance, are insecure and anxious around others, because you are catering to likes and dislikes and watching their every move for approval, adjusting even mirroring until you have gained their approval and then that becomes your personality for that person. Now you are walking around with multiple personalities and are uncomfortable being around new people because you don't know which personality to express.
Know your discomfort around others is due to the dissonance between your false self and true self.
Let the Holy Spirit teach you who you are, and He will lead you into how to reveal that and rest in that.
You don't have to be anything for anybody.
You owe it to yourself at this point in your life to honor and love you.
From Jesus:
I've said enough.
Question of the day
Could it be that God has not released you because He still has much work to do on you?
Fame, fortune, ministry comes with weight and responsibility that will crush some operating in a false identity. You are royalty. Think, regality.
What does that look like to you?
Take some time reflect on who you are alone with God. (This is the reason for your isolation) Pay attention to the shift in the presence of others. That is the performer. It's time to put the performer out of job. Put them to rest.
Be who you are unapologetically.
Scripture
Job 23:8-12
“But if I go to the east, he is not there;
if I go to the west, I do not find him.
9 When he is at work in the north, I do not see him;
when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him.
10 But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.
11 My feet have closely followed his steps;
I have kept to his way without turning aside.
12 I have not departed from the commands of his lips;
I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.
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