Check-in

I dont know how I am feeling today.

I invite you in Holy Spirit to help me navigate my current state of being, my emotions, my thoughts, the posture of my heart. Make clear to me that which I cannot see.

Holy Spirit:

 You are exhausted Jennifer; understandbly so. You have been on such a long journey of waiting, dissappointment, heartbreak, pressure, spiritual warfare, failures and triumphs, healing and training.

And you are tired.

I know that the phrases, "keep going", "you're so close", "don't give up", "you're closer than you have ever been" has lost their meaning.

They no longer can serve as a point of encouragement.

You are resistant to allowing your hope to be restored as you have been let down so many times.

I know how hard you have worked. 

I have seen how much you have sacrificed.

I know how much you have encouraged God's people when your own heart was sick, and your soul was full of despair.

You have been pushed passed your breaking point so many times that there is a little resemblance of you left.

I know. I know.

I know because I have been right here with you every step of the way encouraging you, comforting you, teaching you.

It is my job to comfort you and in this moment that is what I will do.

I will not use typical phrases as they have been over used year after year.

I will not use the word which have yet to see manifest in your life.

I will only tell you what is going to happen.

GOD IS GOING TO BLESS YOU.

YOU WILL HAVE YOUR OWN CAR

YOU WILL HAVE A HOME OF YOUR OWN.

YOU WILL FINANCE YOUR KIDS FUTURE.

YOU WILL HAVE A THRIVING MINISTRY.

YOU WILL BE DEBT FREE

YOU WILL GIVE TO OTHERS AND HELP BIRTH THEIR MINISTRIES.

YOUR WILL HAVE WEALTH, ABUNDANCE AND PROSPERITY.

YOU WILL HAVE A KINGDOM SPOUSE.

YOU WILL HAVE IT ALL.

IT IS WRITTEN. IT IS SO.

Every prayer has been received.

All prayers are being answered.

You will see the goodness of the Lord.

No amount of doubt, hesitancy or resistance will stop God from doing what He has decided to do.

It is happening and it's happening now.

You are beginning to see the bubbling. Soon you WILL see it spring forth.

Your feelings are valid in the eyes of man.

You have been strong for so long.

Soon you will reap the fruit of that strength; of you continuing on long after others have fallen away.

You have watched people move past you and seemingly outrun you, but God is saving the best for last.

You WILL.

Your tears will turn into joy.

Your heartache into pure love.

God is coming through for you now.

You dont need to trust Him as it is already happening.

The only thing left for you to do is watch and see. Watch and see.

It was all for you all along.