Today, I am feeling amazing.

The Lord woke me up at 2:46 a.m. and I got up!!!

I was excited about the day. If He woke me up this morning, we must have a full day planned. In good spirits, I navigated my morning routine eager to spend time with God and prepare for the day.

Regardless of how I think my life should be, the pace I feel it should be going, what I feel I deserve or believe I'm ready for is all of no consequence. It is all in the hands of God.

There is no other option for me but to remain in step with the Lord.

Oh, how far we have come.

The wresting no more.

I have been subdued.

The Father has won.

And now my only posture is on my knees hanging on to God, letting Him know I will not let go until He blesses me. Even beyond that, my prayer is that I never let go.

Where is there to go but God?

All things pale in comparison. There is no other path. There is no other plan. There is no other way but God's way.

I thank the Lord for wrestling me. Who am I Lord that you come to wrestle with that that is no match for you at all. Who am I that deserves all of this care, time and attention?

You have invested much in me. You have poured so much in me. Patient, kind, gentle, stern, disciplinarian yet always love- just who is this great God that we serve?

I am still in the process of finding out who you are, who you created me to be and what you desire me to do.

I am eagerly standing by as the movie of my life unfolds. It's all still a mystery how it will all come together.

But I yield to the Master director of my life.

I trust you with it. I walk in step with you Lord each moment of each day. 

The fight and resistance dissipated.

Nothing left but just me and you for all eternity.

Thank you, Lord, for helping to get here- at peace in contentment with you and you alone.

From Jesus:

You will need to hold onto this for the days to come. Life will get busier, people will now take up space once reserved for us, distractions will abound. There will be much to do. Seek me in the small windows of time throughout your day. Sneak in a hello and I love you. I will always be with you in the rage of the chaos and in the stillness of your soul. Enjoy our time together that we have now. It will not always be like this but know I will be smiling down on you so happy to see that you are able to experience all I've had in store for you all along. I love you, Jennifer. I pray you forgive me for the rough times I've laid upon on you. It was all for your good. I soon hope that one day you will thank me and say it was good that I was afflicted. My heart's desire is that you understand it was all for you and it brings you closer to me.