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How am I feeling? A question mark just about describes it well.

So, in this time, I have to break out the tried-and-true method- The Truth About Myself Is... Let's find out together.

I have been experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions that range from fear, doubt, courage, boldness, expectation, disappointment, confusion, clarity, excitement all resulting in physically feeling anxious.

I am in this space of unknown. I am truly out here in the deep waters.

I am so deep that I have become even more sensitive to the Lord's voice. What I have also become more sensitive to is my voice and the voice of the enemy.

They all seem to be at odds with one another.

See if you can follow me as I try to give language to my recent experiences:

I feel as though I am emerging.

I don't want to make a misstep.

I want to seize the moment!!

I don't want to move ahead of God or behind Him. I need to be in step.

I want to boldly step out where I have never stepped before and let the new Jennifer out on display." Look at all the work the Father has done in the secret place!!!"

I want to decrease in all humility.

I feel my time is now to be unleashed and I am watchful for all opportunities.

I want to wait and trust in God's perfect timing.

The old Jennifer wanted to be seen. The new Jennifer can't hide because she's bold and fearlessly. The old Jennifer was scared and hid. The new Jennifer...

I don't know

Who exactly is the new Jennifer?

The old has been crucified.

The new still in the process of becoming.

It's as though God has hit pause on my life, and I am waiting.

Too many false starts.

What am I supposed to be doing?

Who am I supposed to be?

How will I know as I emerge from the cocoon?

I feel like the caged bird that's been let out bouncing against every wall in a frenzy, yet still in the cage?

Lord what is this? What's happening?

From Jesus:

Rest Jennifer. This is completely normal. You are in transition. Now more than ever, practice yourself soothing methods. Breathe, calm yourself, listen to music to soothe your soul. Move slowly at my speed, until I direct you otherwise. You can feel it, can't you? There is nothing for you to figure out. Simply remain in place. Your time has come. Prepare to receive.