Accepting Process

Checking in early this morning

The truth about myself is...

The truth about myself is, I am more involved in this process the Lord has me on than ever before

I am more invested in this process.

I am seeking more

desiring more

surrendered more

desiring to commit to more

wanting more

willing to sacrifice more.

What I am learning more than anything is that it’s process

Where I was yesterday, two days ago, last month, last year, a few years prior is not where I am today.

I have been awakened to so much more of this world, of myself, of others, of the kingdom of God.

I have transitioned/evolved from awakening and exposure to transformation and becoming.

It was process.

When I consider all that I’ve been through and all that I am today, it makes me hopeful and excited as, Lord willing, I have decades before me.

If I have decades to live into, what is yet to become? What is yet to unfold? What is yet to be revealed? What is the further transformation I will come into? What is in the more?

Understanding, that it all came not overnight where I am, it came through processing over time, so I know if I want to become what God desires me to become decades from now, I have to allow time for process- moment by moment, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year, and if I allow the time for the process to do its work, that although I will experience challenges, hardships, and difficulties, I will also experience triumphs and victories that will lead into the further transformation of my true identity in Christ and also the conforming to his very own identity.

Armed with that knowledge, I’m OK with the discomfort of the moment, not knowing in the moment, the lack of control in the moment, the perceived lack of needs and wants in the moment, knowing that I am fully immersed in process.

Only now I am surrendered to the process and committed to allowing it to do its work.

Thank you God for bringing me thus far.

From Jesus:

Continue to move forward Jennifer

You are continuing to allow yourself to be stretched, to be molded, to be shaped, lean into it. Each day you lean into it, you are giving yourself opportunity for your prayers to be answered- to become what I desire you to become and to do what I desire you to do. Let not discomfort sway you from destiny. Let it propel you into it knowing the discomfort will lead you into growth and maturation in Me. Each day push yourself to live into who I’ve called you to be and what I’ve called you to do. You are not alone. I will help you through this. Lean on me and I will show you the way.