Feeling out of control

I have been feeling out of control.

There are many puzzle pieces that I see all suited to serve a specific purpose and function in my life presently and in my future.

I just dont see how to form them into the puzzle.

It is as though I am looking at a 1000 peices of a puzzle for a 3,000 peice puzzle.

I know God will provide the additional peices when I need them.

For now, my focus is on the 1000 pieces.

How will I even find the time to put all of the pieces together?

How will they all fit together in only 24 hours of the day?

Today, more than ever, I desperately need the help of the Holy Spirit to guide me in every step, every action that I take. 

I do not want to be swept up in things not of God.

I've learned to do the morally right, good, God, for me, right now thing.

This is the space I want to flow in with God.

Removed from all distractions, worries or cares of this world. Just focused on God and what He has for me.

But how can I in the midst of this tug of war present in my very being- the enemy presenting distractions in many forms while the Lord is leading me in the path to destiny.

Today, I feel like the red bouncy ball is flying every which way trying to grab my attention. 

Holy spirit:

Do you understand Jennifer? All of this is by design to get you to see how important it is to remain in me. Let go of control. Your problem is not with the activities or tasking but with control. You are approaching your life in this season from a worldly approach. You are trying to grab a handle on all that's going on and put it into a neat package that then you can put away. This is the way our mind works. You need to stop trying to put together the puzzle yourself. There are more pieces than you even are aware of. More than 3,000 but Infinite. You are a piece in the infinitude of Christ, of God Himself, so your pieces of infinite. Therefore, it is impossibility to put them all together. You MUST lean on me to show you how to put the puzzle together piece by piece. You do this in moments of time but at times you try to put pieces together yourself and you get overwhelmed. Know that I, Jennifer, I have a plan for your life. All you have to do is follow the steps. Let me take care of how it will all come together. You just seek and obey the steps. You are trying to imagine what cannot be imagined. Have I not been instructing you? I will continue to do so. My instructions lead to your destiny you were created for not what you have seen or experience or even desire but for purpose. You are a tool being forged for Gods purpose. You have no clue what that purpose entails so STOP TRYING TO CONTROL THE FORGING PROCESS. Trust God and let it happen. Relax. God will complete the good work He started in you. Trust Him to do so. Let go of control. It is all going to be ok. It will all work out in your favor. At this point Jennifer, what do you have to lose;) The outcome is not your responsibility, it belongs to God. How it all comes together falls on God. Your responsibility is to have faith by seeking and taking the step, letting go and trusting God.